I got a bit lit yesterday
Felt a bit vulnerable writing this tbh, but here's my truth
Alcohol - #Physical Pillar
I’ll preface this by saying that I rarely drink. I made the call around three years ago, when I realised the detrimental impact regular alcohol intake was having on my health, particularly mentally. Huge shoutout to my sister who started the journey and inspired me to follow suit. We by no means stood out from the crowd with our alcohol consumption; we simply decided it wasn’t right for us… not our journey!
Yesterday, as I mentioned in my post, was a bit of an emotionally tough day.
So, it got to 4pm (on a Sunday), my husband was out, and I thought to myself: f*ck it, I’m having a few drinks. And so I did.
Do I regret it? Yes and no. Gosh, I love a grey area, don’t I?!
Yes, because I slept horribly (alcohol impacts good quality sleep - no one is spared from this btw #sorrynotsorry), and woke up feeling AVERAGE at best. Because I rarely drink, I know how good I feel without it, so that comparison didn’t help me this morning when I woke up feeling not so cute.
No, because I have learnt to trust myself and I made the call that was right for me at the time. Tbh, I had a bit of fun doing it and it helped me in the moment. Again, because I rarely drink, I have trained myself not to rely on alcohol… Jury is still out on this one for me, but I think that there is sometimes a time and place where I feel it’s “helpful”.
What have I learnt?
Don’t drink when I’m feeling terribly low. I had a rough day, but over the course of the day I was able to turn it around and started to feel rather positive. I only had a drink once I reached that more positive point.
Drink at a “reasonable” hour and not alone - I knew I could have a couple of late afternoon drinks (yes, by myself, but I wanted to be alone with my thoughts) and my husband would be home soon to join me. We had dinner and drinks together.
Move on. As I said above, I made the the call that was right for me at the time, so there is no point tossing and turning* over my decision. I made the call and it’s been done! I’ll move on and take my learnings with me.
* figuratively. Literally, I tossed and turned all night lol - shocking sleep, but again: I made my bed and I gotta sleep (badly) in it.
I hope that helped someone. Writing it out sure helped me, for what it’s worth!
Simply figuring it out,
Salty