"You're really wasted you need a book"
No, you didn't read that right - let me explain...
A bit on #Purpose - #Spirituality Pillar
My sister texted me last night saying “you’re really wasted you need a book”. Let me re-write that on her behalf to alleviate any confusion: “your talent is wasted and you should write a book”.
Lol^
And to that, I respond: “not yet”. H, hope you’re reading this lol, as I haven’t responded to your text!
Truth be told, I’ve written one. Look, it’s absolutely not where I’d like to be, but it’s there and I could press send if I wanted to. But, the thing is, I don’t want to! YET… the Power of Yet (lol IYKYK).
I feel I say this every year, but every year (day!), I learn more about myself and I feel a book is currently too “set in stone” for my current struggles (i.e, perfectionist, over-thinker). What if I change my mind in regards to that particular topic? What if I no longer agree with that statement? What if that “advice” doesn’t work for someone who reads my book? WORRY LIST GOES ON (and on).
I do realise that this worry is something that I absolutely need to work on, and that’s exactly what I’m doing RN - y’all on the journey with me!
My overthinking is very much linked to my anxiety. When I'm anxious, I use perfectionist behaviours as a form of control. When I want to do something, I wait for the "perfect" moments in life. This has set me back enormously. I believe it's my defence mechanism for failure - if I don't try, then I can't fail. I've learnt that if I want to do something, I just need to start doing it. Even if it means trying and failing, the feeling of trying is far more rewarding and conducive to a happy mind.
The thing is, I will continue to change, grow, evolve, better myself until, well, forever, so I cannot let this get in the way of my dreams. In fact, I should use this notion of change in my favour - as a motivator to release MORE books, to continue sharing my learnings. People release their writings all day, every day - does this mean that they have to think that exact same way forever? Nope. As I mentioned in one of my earlier posts, a great sign of intelligence is being able to hold your hands up and say: “You know that thing I said? Yeh well, I no longer agree with that and this is what I’ve since learnt”.
In another of my earlier posts, I explained that I love the idea of this blog as it gives me the ability to come back to things I’ve discussed and amend, comment, discuss, add to, clarify, etc.
And as my husband said to me the night before I launched my blog: “just start”. So, I did. And here I am.
I’ve started with this blog. And within only one week of writing, sharing, and learning, I can happily confirm that I do not intend on stopping there.
“Never give up on a dream just because of the time it will take to accomplish it. The time will pass anyway” - Earl Nightingale, Author.
Simply learning,
Salty
P.S. I stumbled upon this image of a book I wrote when I was teeny tiny, titled ‘My Snow Leopard and her babies’! Once a writer, always a writer hehehe.